Brave, Strong, True: Going Beyond Memorial on Veteran’s Day

brave strong true beyond memorial on veterans day

by Kate HendricksThis Veterans Day, I am trying to contribute to the community I call home by sharing stuff that is hard for me to share. My book, Brave, Strong, & True: The Modern Warrior’s Battle for Balance hits stores and online retailers today. It is my attempt to talk about something important, and to honor my responsibility to continue to serve even after leaving the active duty Marine Corps. My watch is over, but I am far from disconnected; the military will always be home.

Despite the vast news coverage of the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan since 2001, one figure has remained mysterious: the number of suicides among US servicemen and women, compared to combat casualties. Here’s one statistic to contemplate: In 2012, the US military lost 295 soldiers, sailors, airmen, and Marines in combat in Afghanistan. But over this same time period, 349 took their own lives.

Right now, we are losing more veterans to suicide than to combat.

I’m a pretty decisive
person with limited ability to ask for help and zero trouble-taking risks; there was a time I could have become one of those statistics.  
Kate with Military women
Those figures are mysterious because even as we throw money and resources at clinical mental health treatment and blame rising rates on multiple deployments, the answers are elusive.
The narrative of the “broken veteran” struggling with combat stress just doesn’t ring quite true to those of us who served over the last decade, and the issue is more complicated than simple statistics can show.

I became a Marine to serve, and I loved being part of the Corps. As with anything I have ever loved intensely, the military changed and shaped me. To the casual observer looking in, the
world seems brutal and intense. That casual observer isn’t entirely wrong—the military is some of those things. Shared hardship and challenge are vital parts of the refining and rebuilding process that changes a civilian into a warrior. If you ask anyone who served, they wouldn’t have it any other way. No one wants what comes easily or is handed to just anyone.

That process of obstacles, mastery experience, and shared suffering offers growth and transformation, but coming back to civilian life afterward can be incredibly hard. Standards are
different. Camaraderie is different. Culture is absolutely different. I witnessed firsthand the toll that leaving the service took on many of us.

Stressful work environments, high rates of divorce and domestic violence, family separation,
and repeated combat deployments all contributed, but the biggest reason for the reintegration
problems many of us faced is cultural. We subscribe to unbalanced notions of what it means to be a warrior, and uphold silent suffering as virtue. Mistakes are shameful; pain is weakness. Saying that something is hard or stressful just isn’t done.

I don’t want to contribute to the silence that surrounds these issues anymore. Too many
aspects of warrior culture are destructive lies we tell ourselves.

Who are we maintaining this veneer for?
What do we have to prove anymore?

Constant invulnerability is an illusion, and cultural mandates to be “together” in every way become dangerously prescriptive. We lose our authenticity in this way; we don’t know how to reach out to each other when stresses start to overwhelm.

Too many of us who are used to appearing strong would, indeed, rather consider suicide than admit to being human, fallible, or broken.

Screen Shot 2015-11-06 at 10.08.05My own public story was of crisp uniforms, physical fitness metrics, and successes. I always
looked good on paper. My private story involved destructive choices, broken doors and holes in the walls, hiding weapons in the house, and getting dragged across the living room floor by my hair. I was as far from God as a person could be but had no idea at the time.

As a Marine Officer, I was not supposed to make mistakes, feel depressed, or need help. But I did. Tough places and situations became tougher because I didn’t know that people might be okay with an imperfect version of me. For too long I chose silence over reaching out to loved ones. I opted for deeply felt, visceral shame over openness and vulnerability.

When serving in the military we are trained to lead with confidence. Presenting a certain and effective façade requires some incredibly useful skills. We make decisions quickly and responsively, but these very same skills become incredibly destructive when we never learn how to turn them off.

This description fits most service members. We tend to be a driven, almost comically dysfunctional lot.

What if I told you that I am not perfect?

I want to discuss strategies with you – including social support, self care, and spiritual
practice – for all of us to meet the challenge of living purposeful lives. This is my attempt to
contribute to the dialogue about connecting with veterans in this country after the last two wars.

Kate's quote Brave Strong True

The book is a mix of stories from veterans, behavioral health research, and just a bit of practical
guidance. Thank you for reading it. Thank you for caring. Thank you for having the conversation
about balance with the military-connected people in your life. Whether you are a veteran, a family member, a military commander, mental health professional, or an everyday citizen who can identify with the title “warrior,” I appreciate you for engaging.

 

(Featured article image used with creative commons license by xU.S. Naval Forces Central Command/U.S. Fifth Fleet

All other images provided by the author. )

 


Kate Hendricks

Dr. Kate Hendricks Thomas is an Assistant Professor of Health Promotion at Charleston Southern University.  Kate is a former Marine, a yoga teacher, and mom to both a fearless baby and the Great Dane who dotes on him. Kate can be reached via her website, www.katehendricksthomas.com or via @precisionwell. Order Kate’s new book, Brave Strong True: The Modern Warrior’s Battle for Balance, here  or at your favorite book retailer.

 

 


 

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